My Life Journey.

I am a lover of music and silence, movement and stillness, stoicism and chaos.

I was raised in a wonderful and loving family in a small town in Michigan. In my adolescence and early adulthood I learned a lot about anxiety, confusion, depression, dishonesty, and self-doubt. I also learned a lot about having fun and being young and wild. In high school I was in love and I liked to think of myself as a rebel.

In my twenties I was living life on a rollercoaster fueled mostly by alcohol - soaring into light-hearted triumph and glee and inevitably descending into a felt sense of disconnection and being lost and confused. I had developed an unhealthy relationship with alcohol because I didn’t know another way to feel joy and freedom on demand and I was embedded within a social context wherein I didn’t know how to be sober without feeling anxious. Over time, I became significantly disconnected from myself and eventually I was convinced that true happiness and being in love were for fairy tales, children, and naive teenagers.

I moved to San Diego to pursue a Phd in Chemistry and experience life outside of the midwest where I had been all of my life. This chapter was so many things for me - a graceful fire, a blur of beauty and pain; art and isolation.

I finished graduate school and, with the helping hand of what I now know as Divine guidance, I moved to San Francisco to pursue postgraduate studies in molecular biology. In this beautiful place my whole life changed.

I fell in love again and again. I encountered the strangest most beautiful beings who gently invited me into deep life learnings including knowing parts of myself that I had never made contact with. I learned that I wasn’t my personality but rather my personality was one aspect of my multi-faceted being. I discovered that my body loved to dance to its own inner rhythm. I discovered psychedelic mushrooms and plant medicine of the South American jungle. I realized the epic beauty and tragedy of Life including the knowing that I am the Earth, the Cosmos, and Life living itself. I fell in love with the majestic redwood forests of the Bay Area and felt, for the first time, the deep truth of my interconnectedness and inter-being with all of Nature.

Ultimately, I fell in love with life. I was cracked opened to Love and to Life.